I’m always waiting for someone.
or something.
That someone never comes.
and that something never happens.
I guess I’ll keep waiting.
- Esraa Ammar
I’m always waiting for someone.
or something.
That someone never comes.
and that something never happens.
I guess I’ll keep waiting.
- Esraa Ammar
You hate everyone around you.
You think no one cares.
the ones thing I asked from you is to call me back when you have time cause I needed you.
I needed someone to talk to.
I needed my friend to be there for me.
you didn’t.
now am the one to blame.
I’m the one who doesn’t give a damn about you.
Really ?!!!
Is that what you have become!!
what kind of human being are you ?!
why did you become everything you said you won’t.
I didn’t tell you when I had my own problems cause I know you have your own.
The one thing I wanted was for you to feel better.
For you to believe I’m there for you, to know that I truly care. But now you’re treating me like dirt.
you’re ignoring me.
You wanted to keep your distance because you thought you were falling for me.
You keep punishing me for telling you the truth.
for being honest.
but I’ll tell you what my friend, I didn’t promise you anything that I couldn’t keep.
I told you I’ll be there for you and am still here whenever you need me.
The problem is that you already lost my trust a long time ago.
when you decided that ignoring me would be the best solution to get over me.
I’m tired of trying.
I’ll just watch you from a distance, to make sure you’re doing okay.
I’ll do my part and forget about yours.
- Esraa Ammar
There are these days when I can’t stop thinking about you , Can’t stop thinking about what we could’ve been and all I wanna do is to message you with how much I miss you . These are the days where all I wanna be is right beside you.
But there are also these days where I can’t stand thinking about you , Can’t stand the fact that you lied to me or even think about how much I miss that good person I thought it was you , These are the days where I wish you never existed.
- Esraa Ammar
- Esraa Ammar
And here I am, ALIVE without you.
Here I am, strong & standing on my feet again.
Here I am, Not missing you, but missing the person I thought you were.
Here I am, Standing here on my own, without needing your shoulder to lean on.
- Esraa Ammar
I’m just sad because I’m trying so hard to work this friendship while you just keep pushing me away.
Imagine if you’re living with a friendship that is too important to you, knowing that you might give up on me anytime, Knowing that you don’t care.
Most of all knowing that I’m not important to you like you’re to me.
How could I sleep at night knowing that you could cut the cord anytime.
- Esraa Ammar
But I don’t know if that’s the case, I’m not sure if that’s true.
So today it felt like disappearing, I had my phone switched off, and I deactivated my FB because it’s useless anyway. and I wanted to take a break.
No, I didn’t do that to see who would notice or who would care enough to ask where am I, Because I’m trying so much not to expect, and I’m already not expecting anyone noticing cause I’m not important to anyone like they are important to me.
I’m not sad, I’m just tired.
I think I need to visit a Psychologist, Maybe he/she could help me somehow.
actually I think everyone needs to visit one.
at least they will listen, They won’t be rude, They won’t ignore me, They won’t judge me and maybe just maybe they will understand me.
- Esraa Ammar
I thank God for being alive today.
I thank God for giving me the chance to realize how easy it is to wake up knowing that you won’t be there.
I thank God for the chance of seeing the light even though you’re no longer the reason for it.
I thank God for being alive today , For giving me the chance to love again.