October 6, 2011

Empty is what I am.

Heartless is what I claim.

Pointless is my life.

and The society is to blame.

- Esraa Ammar  

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September 9, 2011
Your love was never real, it was just a dream.

A dream that I kept running after.

A dream where you always leave me hanging by the end.

A dream where we meet but have nothing to say for each other.

Wrong signs.

Silent moments.

Going to bed hoping I’ll meet you halfway, waking up crying as you ran away.

But you were never real.

in fact that wasn’t a dream.

that was a nightmare.

- Esraa Ammar  

September 6, 2011

A dark night of suffering, a long day ahead.

where there’s no one listening, to the voice in my head.

- Esraa Ammar  

August 29, 2011
I’m always waiting.

I’m always waiting for someone.

or something.

That someone never comes.

and that something never happens.

I guess I’ll keep waiting.

- Esraa Ammar  

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August 26, 2011
How to resume a friendship with a long lost friend !

You hate everyone around you.

You think no one cares.  

the ones thing I asked from you is to call me back when you have time cause I needed you.

I needed someone to talk to.

I needed my friend to be there for me.

you didn’t.

now am the one to blame.

I’m the one who doesn’t give a damn about you.

Really ?!!!

Is that what you have become!!
what kind of human being are you ?!
why did you become everything you said you won’t.
I didn’t tell you when I had my own problems cause I know you have your own.
The one thing I wanted was for you to feel better.
For you to believe I’m there for you, to know that I truly care.  But now you’re treating me like dirt.
you’re ignoring me.
You wanted to keep your distance because you thought you were falling for me.
You keep punishing me for telling you the truth.
for being honest.
but I’ll tell you what my friend, I didn’t promise you anything that I couldn’t keep.
I told you I’ll be there for you and am still here whenever you need me.
The problem is that you already lost my trust a long time ago.
when you decided that ignoring me would be the best solution to get over me.
I’m tired of trying.

I’ll just watch you from a distance, to make sure you’re doing okay.
I’ll do my part and forget about yours.

- Esraa Ammar  

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August 26, 2011

There are these days when I can’t stop thinking about you , Can’t stop thinking about what we could’ve been and all I wanna do is to message you with how much I miss you . These are the days where all I wanna be is right beside you.

But there are also these days where I can’t stand thinking about you , Can’t stand the fact that you lied to me or even think about how much I miss that good person I thought it was you , These are the days where I wish you never existed.

- Esraa Ammar  

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August 25, 2011
Follow your brain it will save you from the pain.

- Esraa Ammar

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August 25, 2011
It has been a year since we started talking, and it has been 8 months since we stopped.

And here I am, ALIVE without you. 

Here I am, strong & standing on my feet again. 

Here I am, Not missing you, but missing the person I thought you were. 

Here I am, Standing here on my own, without needing your shoulder to lean on.

- Esraa Ammar  

August 25, 2011
This is why I couldn’t sleep tonight.

I’m just sad because I’m trying so hard to work this friendship while you just keep pushing me away. 
Imagine if you’re living with a friendship that is too important to you, knowing that you might give up on me anytime, Knowing that you don’t care. 
Most of all knowing that I’m not important to you like you’re to me. 
How could I sleep at night knowing that you could cut the cord anytime.

- Esraa Ammar  

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